It has been five long months and as you can see, not much has changed with me. Same format, different photo (points to you if you know the image in my profile). A new title for the blog, but the attitude will be the same. Of course, for all things that are the same, there is that much that has changed.
I am surprised to be sitting here writing these words on this computer. I was pretty sure that I had seen the last of the blogging days. Real sure of it, in fact. Over two years of writing almost every single day... This was all I knew. It was my heroin addiction. My mini-series that I couldn't miss one installment of. It lasted longer than most of my relationships with real people. Which means, in a weird sort of way, that I dated all [blah, blah, blah] of you and then broke up traumatically over a need to see something new. So it's odd to be sitting here again, gazing upon familiar fonts and formats, humping you again.
Five months can be a long time in anyone's life. Look back upon your own life and see how far you have come in the last five months. Are you bigger? Smaller? Richer? Poorer? Do you still live in the same place? Do you still talk to the same people? Have any values changed? Or is everything still steadfastly the same in every way? Do you still eat the same thing for breakfast everyday? Is your favorite movie the same? Hint: Most of this has changed for me.
Much has changed in my world. For one, names and characters that I have written about, both beloved and despised, have come and gone. Heidi - the single greatest dog in the whole wide world - has passed on. The mere mention of her name brings tears to my eyes. I shall write about her later, for now, just remember her as 43 percent of my overall happiness.
Still others have entered my life that you have never known and their place in my world has, and will, become more important as the days play themselves out before me.
When I left you, I was at the Perch in Tacoma, living below a grand view of the great volcano. That much has stayed the same, though there is much at work to change much of that. I have my sights set on the countryside again. As much as I have enjoyed the city scene, it's time for me to return to more sparcsely populated areas. I think most people prefer me better in that capacity. "Arms length" has always a good social practice when dealing with surly types such as myself.
As much as I could fill this post with "what's up with me" data, I am really more interested in what everyone else has been up to. In some way, this whole thing feels like an odd run-in you might have with an ex-lover in a store or on the street; you want to catch up - sort of, but where do you begin? For the most part, you want to gloat, or brag, or to prod each other for painful information, and then ultimately to run off and have sex - just for old time sake. Not having that as an option, I'll stick with a more casual and less messy; How are you?
This time around, I hope you'll bear with me when I say that if I do this, I'll need donations. I was thinking of making this a paid site, but chose to stick with the donation button as I know most of you can afford to donate and I don't know how to make this a site where you have to pay to join. The porn site people were pretty hush-hush about their methods when I asked. Knowing this, please take time to click on the donate button and again, we will walk down the road of madness and spirituality. There is so much to tell you. So much to look forward to. Coming in less than a month is the INVASION OF AFRICA tour as well as the TOUR OF ALL THINGS EASTERN this summer.
If you look to the blogging horizon, you'll see something worth five bucks a month. If not, go see who got voted off American Idol this week.
